high hopes

Why did you do this , to me ? ):

Thinking bout it , I cried my heart out . Just for you .

... cause you're amazing , just the way you are ..

For the past few days , I thought that I could get you back . I seriously did .
When I met you , god , how happy I was to see you talking to me face to face after 9 months of not seeing each other . Just the two of us . You were wondering , whythefuck was I walking around and around at the playground . I was gonna cry , get it ? I almost cried , cause after 9 months of waiting and dying to meet and talk to you , that day came . But , unfortunately , I didn't get to express my true feelings towards you . I didn't really have the guts to say it , straight to you . All I know is one thing , I would cry if I do tell you . You don't know how much you mean to me . You don't know the feeling of waiting for you , for 9 months . You don't seem to care , that I still love you . Sometimes, I just wonder, if I were to tell you everything that I told you before in those messages and express it till I drop down crying in front of you , would you care ? Would you feel the love ? Would you at least know how much I love you all this while ? Would you ? Cause all I know , I've texted you on 2 days , and you didn't reply me , literally . Why ? I waited , yknow . Friends said that maybe you were busy . Okay , fine . But , come on . Don't tell me you can't spare some time ?
I texted you today . You only replied me once , and the next minute , you're gone . I wanted to ask you whether we could meet on Friday . I wanna meet you and tell you every single thing that I was supposed to say that day . But , that was only if I were to have the fucking guts uh . I've been wanting to meet you again , since that day . Maybe , just maybe , you don't love me anymore . Fine . But , I feel that you still have that small portion where you do . Hey , at least appreciate my love . I've been yours , before . Can't I be yours again ? I just want to feel that love that we had once . It really made me happy . You .. You just don't seem to understand . All.I.want.is.to.have.you.back. Yknow how much I love you . But ... )':

Canipleasehaveyouback ? )':

I'm on my own , while you're not .

Hi , I love them . \m/

Didn't update this shit for a long time , I guess . Erm , I've been .. not okay these few days . So , urm , chalet is on the 6th - 7th . uhh , six . uhh .. Well , I'll tell you roughly of what happened recently . Lost my passport at Malaysia's custom . Erm , in a ' performance thingy ' for Hari Raya ( school ) . Starting to dislike someone annoying . Pfft . Pisses me of big time . Been studying more , I guess . O: Memories kept blahhhhhh . Shall not say . Okay , Fasting month , urm , saved up a lot ! :D Weee ~ Savings + Raya money = :D :D :D :D but .. ME + Life = D: D': /:

I noticed that lots of people are having troubles themselves . Erm , I hope Iqyn and Miraa are alright . I hope Fatin and Musq are fine with each other . I hope the usuals won't always look down in life . There's more to life , just forget what you think is bringing you down . There's more ahead , look forward . Hahak , I'm doing good myself , but I'm trying to see the better side in life . Try it . (:

Breaking fast at Far East later . Ah , k bye .

( 2 more days - 6th ) :'(

Will be dying inside . Arrgh . Happy for chalet ? Maybe .

You got me going undone ..

Good to see you happy .

We had epic memories , but I still love it . ♥

To think that you will change . To think that .. you'll become a better guy . What happened eh ? I thought you wanted to change . for good . haish . You said that people don't appreciate it when you became good . Therefore , you became bad again . Wtf ? You're saying that you bloody changed for good , just because you want people to ... what .. like you ah ? -.-. Change for yourself la bro .

I.ignored.you,cause.I.had.to.
I.didn't.want.to.
But,you.told.me.to.move.on.
Most.probably.because.you.are.already.attached.
you.could.have.just.told.me.that.
Crying.for.you,isn't.a.mistake.at.all.
I.cried.for.you.more.then.thrice.
But.you.didn't.know.at.all.
I.know.you.wouldn't.care,like.how.you.said.you.would.
but,i.just.feel.that.you're.saying.those.words,just.so.that.I.would.think.that.you.are.caring.for.me.
But,knowing.that.you.are.attached,i.don't.see.the.point.of.you.giving.me.this.hopeless.shit.
boy,I.thought.that.I'll.have.that.chance.to.tell.you.that.I.still.love.you.
Hah,I.guess.I.was.wrong.
You.found.someone.else.
Sometimes,I.just.wonder,how.could.you.break.girls.heart,yet.get.another.girl.after.that.
and,NOT.feeling.hurt.or.wrong.after.that.
haish,you.want.me.to.be.happy.
How.could.I?tell.me.maybe,I'm.only.happy.to.see.you.happy.
But.that.doesn't.change.my.happiness.
Happiness.for.you,not.for.me.
You.meant.a.lot.to.me.
But,I.guess.it's.not.that.same.for.me.in.your.heart.
How.I.wish.I.would.have.the.guts.to.tell.you.that.I.still.love.you. ♥
But.now.things.have.changed.
I.JUST.DON'T.KNOW.WHAT.TO.DO.


But.Now.I.Have.To.Move.On. 
That's only if I could . )':
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