Cause you're amazing ♥

high hopes

2010-10-13T17:01:00.000+08:00

Why did you do this , to me ? ):

Thinking bout it , I cried my heart out . Just for you .

2010-09-29T20:51:00.000+08:00

... cause you're amazing , just the way you are ..

For the past few days , I thought that I could get you back . I seriously did .
When I met you , god , how happy I was to see you talking to me face to face after 9 months of not seeing each other . Just the two of us . You were wondering , whythefuck was I walking around and around at the playground . I was gonna cry , get it ? I almost cried , cause after 9 months of waiting and dying to meet and talk to you , that day came . But , unfortunately , I didn't get to express my true feelings towards you . I didn't really have the guts to say it , straight to you . All I know is one thing , I would cry if I do tell you . You don't know how much you mean to me . You don't know the feeling of waiting for you , for 9 months . You don't seem to care , that I still love you . Sometimes, I just wonder, if I were to tell you everything that I told you before in those messages and express it till I drop down crying in front of you , would you care ? Would you feel the love ? Would you at least know how much I love you all this while ? Would you ? Cause all I know , I've texted you on 2 days , and you didn't reply me , literally . Why ? I waited , yknow . Friends said that maybe you were busy . Okay , fine . But , come on . Don't tell me you can't spare some time ?
I texted you today . You only replied me once , and the next minute , you're gone . I wanted to ask you whether we could meet on Friday . I wanna meet you and tell you every single thing that I was supposed to say that day . But , that was only if I were to have the fucking guts uh . I've been wanting to meet you again , since that day . Maybe , just maybe , you don't love me anymore . Fine . But , I feel that you still have that small portion where you do . Hey , at least appreciate my love . I've been yours , before . Can't I be yours again ? I just want to feel that love that we had once . It really made me happy . You .. You just don't seem to understand . All.I.want.is.to.have.you.back. Yknow how much I love you . But ... )':

2010-09-24T22:56:00.002+08:00

Canipleasehaveyouback ? )':

I'm on my own , while you're not .

2010-09-04T12:57:00.001+08:00

Hi , I love them . \m/

Didn't update this shit for a long time , I guess . Erm , I've been .. not okay these few days . So , urm , chalet is on the 6th - 7th . uhh , six . uhh .. Well , I'll tell you roughly of what happened recently . Lost my passport at Malaysia's custom . Erm , in a ' performance thingy ' for Hari Raya ( school ) . Starting to dislike someone annoying . Pfft . Pisses me of big time . Been studying more , I guess . O: Memories kept blahhhhhh . Shall not say . Okay , Fasting month , urm , saved up a lot ! :D Weee ~ Savings + Raya money = :D :D :D :D but .. ME + Life = D: D': /:

I noticed that lots of people are having troubles themselves . Erm , I hope Iqyn and Miraa are alright . I hope Fatin and Musq are fine with each other . I hope the usuals won't always look down in life . There's more to life , just forget what you think is bringing you down . There's more ahead , look forward . Hahak , I'm doing good myself , but I'm trying to see the better side in life . Try it . (:

Breaking fast at Far East later . Ah , k bye .

( 2 more days - 6th ) :'(

Will be dying inside . Arrgh . Happy for chalet ? Maybe .

You got me going undone ..

2010-09-01T21:44:00.000+08:00

Good to see you happy .

We had epic memories , but I still love it . ♥

2010-08-13T20:22:00.001+08:00

To think that you will change . To think that .. you'll become a better guy . What happened eh ? I thought you wanted to change . for good . haish . You said that people don't appreciate it when you became good . Therefore , you became bad again . Wtf ? You're saying that you bloody changed for good , just because you want people to ... what .. like you ah ? -.-. Change for yourself la bro .

I.ignored.you,cause.I.had.to.
I.didn't.want.to.
But,you.told.me.to.move.on.
Most.probably.because.you.are.already.attached.
you.could.have.just.told.me.that.
Crying.for.you,isn't.a.mistake.at.all.
I.cried.for.you.more.then.thrice.
But.you.didn't.know.at.all.
I.know.you.wouldn't.care,like.how.you.said.you.would.
but,i.just.feel.that.you're.saying.those.words,just.so.that.I.would.think.that.you.are.caring.for.me.
But,knowing.that.you.are.attached,i.don't.see.the.point.of.you.giving.me.this.hopeless.shit.
boy,I.thought.that.I'll.have.that.chance.to.tell.you.that.I.still.love.you.
Hah,I.guess.I.was.wrong.
You.found.someone.else.
Sometimes,I.just.wonder,how.could.you.break.girls.heart,yet.get.another.girl.after.that.
and,NOT.feeling.hurt.or.wrong.after.that.
haish,you.want.me.to.be.happy.
How.could.I?tell.me.maybe,I'm.only.happy.to.see.you.happy.
But.that.doesn't.change.my.happiness.
Happiness.for.you,not.for.me.
You.meant.a.lot.to.me.
But,I.guess.it's.not.that.same.for.me.in.your.heart.
How.I.wish.I.would.have.the.guts.to.tell.you.that.I.still.love.you. ♥
But.now.things.have.changed.
I.JUST.DON'T.KNOW.WHAT.TO.DO.

But.Now.I.Have.To.Move.On.
That's only if I could . )':
)': )': )':

Live in black&white .

2010-08-01T19:45:00.000+08:00

)':

starting time:
7.30 pm

name:
Aliyah (:

Sisters:
One .

Brothers:
One .

eye Color:
Black .

shoe size:
6 .

Hair:
Black .

Piercings:
One on both sides .

Height:
159 .

What are you wearing right now?
Jacket and Billabong pants .

Where do you live?
Tampines .

Favorite number(s):
six.fifthteen. any of those . and one more uh .. (^^)

Favorite drink:
Milk Tea , Ice Milo .

Favorite month:
May .

Favourite breakfast:
Prata ~!

***********Have You Ever***********

Broken a bone?
Nope .

Been in a police car:
Nope .

Been on a plane:
Yes .

Been in a hot tub:
Nope .

Swam in the ocean:
Not really .

Fallen asleep in school?
Yes .

Cried when someone died?:
Duu-uh .

Fell off your chair:
Once . Kindergarten -.- .

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call:
Guess so :/

Saved e-mails:
Yes .

Been cheated on:
:/

***********What is************

Your room like?
Erm , bright and comfy , i guess . :/

What is right beside you?
The sofa .

What is the last thing you ate?
Cheesecake (:

———————-Ever Had- ————————-

Chicken pox:
Yes .

Sore throat:
Yes . Most of the times , maybe (?)

Stitches:
Nope .

Broken nose:
Nope .

————————-Do You————————–

Believe in love at first sight?
Not really .

Like picnics?
No . I LOVE them .

Wear contact lenses or glasses?
Nope .

———————————————————

Who was the last person you danced with?
Erm , not sure .

Who last made you smile?
Someone ~.

————————–Who—————————

Did you last yell at?
Classmates .

What are you listening to right now?
Only One .

What did you do today?
Eat . Cook . Homeworks . Text . Call . Went to Tampines Mart with Naqiah . More la !

Hate someone in your family?
Used to . Not now .

Diamond or pearl?
Diamond .

Are you the oldest?
No . Youngest :/

Indoors or out doors?
Out Doors more .

——————Today did you———————-

1. Talk to someone you like?
Family members only ..

2. Kiss anyone?
Yupp , my Mum .

3. Get sick?
In the morning .

4. Sing?
Hehh , yes yes .

5. Talk to an ex?
Hmmm , nope .

6. Miss someone?
Yes ):

7. Eat?
Duu-uh .

—————-Last person who——————

8. You talked to on the phone?
Mummy (:

9. Made you cry:
That Someone ):

10. Went to the movies with?
A group of friends . (:

11. You went to the mall with?
The usuals ♥
——————Have you——————-

19. Been to Mexico?
Nope .

20. Been to USA?
Nope .0

——————-Random——————–

21. Have a crush on someone?
... :/

22. What books are you reading right now?
I'm not a reader .

23. Best feeling in the world?
Hmmmm :/

24. Future kids names?
Don't plan on knowing now ?

25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
Erm , not really .

26. What’s under your bed?
Boxes . School books . HAHAK .

27. Favorite sport(s) to watch?
Soccer , Rugby (school only) , Floorball .

28. Favorite place:
Most favourite - Beach .

32. Who do you really hate?
:/

33. Do you have a job?
Used to . Not anymore .

37. What time is it now?
7.43 pm

Sometimes , I feel happy . But , when I feel angry , idon'tknowwhy . ):

2010-07-28T21:09:00.000+08:00

I feel that I've changed .
My mood have been disaster-able this few days .
I've lost my appetite .
I've been making my friends worried in class , due to anger .
Why ? Why suddenly ? Fuck la . Why must this happen again . -.- .
Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh !!

Thinking back

2010-07-25T13:43:00.000+08:00

Are you sincere enough ?

2010-07-20T18:56:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not posting for a long time . I've got nothing to say . Bye .

I thought you would change

2010-07-19T22:20:00.002+08:00

I was wrong . So wrong . )':

Now I know , where I got my sarcasm .

2010-07-16T20:30:00.000+08:00

I've no mood today . First thing in the morning ruined everything .
Fucking lost my iTouch . Fucking careless , maybe ?
Then , came home , told Dad . He's okay with it .
Told Mum . All she said was " Congrats . " and gave me a fucking sarcastic smile .
Making it like , it's entirely my fucking fault . WOW .
Thanks eh Mum . Can't believe I actually shouted at her just now .
Thought my mum would actually ask things out , slowly / kindly .
But noooooooooooooo . Fuck . How sarcastic . Thought telling you would soften my fucking mood .
But hey , guessed that you added more to it . Fuck .

What a wonderful world laa eh . -.- . Fuck .

Impossibleeeeeeee ~

2010-07-13T19:14:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not posting for quite some time .
Been busy lately .
Erm , recently , sprained my right hand . Now , I can hardly ... write , not eat using my bare hands . -.-. Even my typing is like .. so damn slow . haish . Erm , DnT sucks . From Mind map to imageboard . -.-. Come on . Give us better work la . pfft . There's so many bloody rules just to do one bloody mind map . Wtf ?
Okay , my hand can't take it anymore . Bye .

Imissyou,eventhoughyoumightnotcare ~.

2010-07-08T21:17:00.002+08:00

I'm good at being sarcastic , so don't try me .

Do something worth remembering .

2010-07-04T22:57:00.001+08:00

" These words are my heart and soul " ♥

Back from Serangoon . Went Sakuntala . Haa . Then , went to City Square , had Ice-cream and headed home . Text-ed Musq, Shaun and Nazatul the whole day .
Mostly , Musq . :D Talked about ' twin Brother ' . :\ :) Lol, great . Err, nothing much happened today .
(Beenwakinguparound3+inthemorningthesefewdays. MaybecauseIwasdreamingaboutyou.
AndthoughtthatIstillexistedinyourheart. But,maybeI'mwrong. DoIstillexistinthatheartofyours?)
Tomorrow, going to Peninsula ; Funan Mall . Collect back my iPod Nano that was under repair .
Shaun, Haryanti and Musq . After that, ' jamming ' nyeeh . Early sia . But , never mind .
Jamming tak menjadi jek . LOL . Hmmmz, Bored sia .
Chatting with Nasrun now . Hmmm, both mendak . Zzz .
Okay, bye .

Heaven

2010-07-03T17:35:00.000+08:00

So, yesterday was Junyuan's sports day .

Lost my voice . Zzz .

EHEH, post next time .

I'm blank and I've been on this page for hours . Bye.

Sports day !

2010-07-02T20:35:00.000+08:00

Eh, You made my day .

Thanks ! Seriously , you really made me happy . hehehe .

After 6 months of not talking nor hearing your voice . ♥

Life's a book full of different stories .

2010-06-27T15:24:00.000+08:00

Completed my homeworks . I guess . o.o
Going out later with Musq , buying school stuffs .
Haaa , even shoes aren't bought yet . :/
Going off around .. 4.30 .
She'll be late, for sure .
Haaah .

Iloveice.
I'vebeeneatingicethewholeday.
Likemybrother.\m/

Ifyou'rereadingthis,don'tbesadlaa.

Somebody to love

2010-06-27T00:18:00.001+08:00

thinking hard .

whyareyouappearinginmydreams ?

" When things are bad , you can change them .

It's just based on whether you would wanna put effort in changing it or not . "

- AliyahHaris .

Can't sleep . Chatting with Musq , currently .

Damn I miss her . heh . Nazatul is still .. Not home yet , maybe ?

Hmm, idon'tknowwhy but , I've been crying these few days . ha , pathetic me .

Goodmorning .

Our Sunset

2010-06-24T13:28:00.000+08:00

Imissourdaystogether. )':

All this attention .

2010-06-24T12:27:00.000+08:00

Hello, Good Afternoon .
Gonna Do some homework later .
Ohh, I swear I have not even touched the papers . x))
A lot of people are telling me that they had barely touched it too .
Meaning , no one did it . :D
Last minute people ahh . Heh .
Hmmm, okay that's all about homeworks .

Tonight , going to Vivo . Dad going off , again . -.-..
Therefore having dinner at Banquet . lolz .
Okay , I'm currently entertaining myself . Bitch .
Damn loner . Hopes that Musq and Nazatul will be back as soon as possible .

Four more days to School . Woozxx .
Hmmm , on the first day or so , is NCC day . Hmmmz . Ncc .
=))
So, expect things to happen .
Okay , that's all . Bye .

May blog again later . Just wait , aite .

"Ijustneedsomebodytloveeeeeee.." ♥
Meaningful phrase , I see .

Forthewayyouare

2010-06-22T23:52:00.001+08:00

Ssup.

Had NCC training just now . 8.00 - 11.30 .
Started at 8.30 cause others were late . -.-.
Training was ... Okay ( for some parts ) .
The ending was ...
Okay , after that , went to Tampines Mall / T1 / Inter .
Then, headed to Naqiah's aunt's house . Then to Nazatul's House .
Watched Niyang Rapik and IP Man 2 . Both great shows .
HAH , Niyang Rapik most epic . A lot of screaming sia . HAHA . Cool .

Okay , lalalaa , went home .
Okay bye .

" Peoplewhotrulyloveyou,willalwayschoosetostay...eventhoughyou'vebeenpushedaway . "
Heyboy,youmighthavethecouragetoloveothers,butyouhavetoloveyourselftoo.
Youhavetoo.Nomatterwhat.Missyou,helpyou,whatever,istheonlythingicando.
Theimportantthingisforyoutobehappy.That'sall.)':

whatcanIdowhenyouhardlytellmethings.andallieverwantedwastoseeyouhappy.
it'shard.butthere'ssuchthingcalledtrying.

Therearesomethingsbeingharderinlifethantocheerupfromsadness.
Andtheharderonesaretobehappyforsomeoneelese.
And.I'm.taking.the.challenge.

i'mhappyifyou'rehappy.

2010-06-20T21:48:00.000+08:00

Went to the Gazillion Bubble Show . A show full of ... BUBBLES . :D

See up there ^ . That's Fan Yang . He has 16 Guinness World Records . Wow .

There were bubbles everywhere , I swear . Around the whole hall ! :D

Downtown East , that is . Had Burger King . :D

An hour before the performance ended , his son came on stage . 20+ years , maybe ?

His performance was AWESOME . He did the same as his dad , just that , it includes lasers .

Made me happy for a moment there . HEHE .

The funny thing was , instead of the kids being happy about bubbles ,

my aunt was jumping around catching them ! O.O

Okay , bye .

Andwhenthingschange;

Youeitherbuyitorshutthefuckup .

Thankyoufornotbloodycooperating .

ehh,imissyou.sorryfortellingyouofjustlikethat,thatday.ihadtogetitoutofmynerves.

hopeyourememberwhati'vesaid.iknowyou'reinpain.indeeppain.yourheartachesthatbad,iknow.

butthisislife,boy.getusetoit.loveonlythoseyoureallylove.don'tplayaround,hurting.

yousaidnoonecaredforyou,boyyou'rewrong.lotsofuscare.andyouyourselfnamedthemthatday.

so,makeadecision.eitherbegoodandearneveryone'strust,orbeabadguyandloseeverything.

takecareboy.idoloveyounomatterwhat,butnow,thingsmayhavechange.

ihopeyouunderstandwhyisaidthosethings.

ohhbytheway,sorryifikepttypyingcontinuouslywithoutspacings.

ijustloveit,sothatit'sharderforyouguystoread. \m/♥

It's my pleasure , but you're effort .

2010-06-20T00:45:00.001+08:00

Hello .
I just got back from Bugis .
Well , started off with Lunch at Airport , canteen .
Satay Ayam ftw . After that , trained to Bugis .
Watched Toys story 3 - 3D .
AWESOME . \M/
Okay , will continue some other day .
It's almost One in the morning , yet I'm still awake .
Freshly awake .
Hmmmmz , btw , Happy Fathers Day to all Dads . Nyahaha .
Okay , bye . Nothing else to post . More to wondering only .

You may have changed . But doesn't mean you can't change back .
It takes time too . So , why don't you start now ?
Haish , sometimes I wonder , what's in that head of yours till you're thinking like this .
You already broke our promise . But , now i realised , you broke it maybe because I'm nothing to you now . Have a great life my friend . Anything , just hello hello with me . :D
Wondering why I'm happy even in this kind of situation ?
Cause , I've been sad for a vvvvvery long time . It's time to change .
Good(morning) , Everyone . :'(

2010-06-17T14:06:00.000+08:00

Ssup . Going to Yan's house today . Selling bike . HAHA .
Okay , bye . Waiting for another hour .

Hey , you . You changed . Alot . You promised me to change for the better .
But now , you changed for the worse . What the fuck is wrong with you ?
When are you going to learn your bloody lesson ?! Arrrgh ! You really disappointed me , this time .

2010-06-13T21:59:00.000+08:00

Hi . Just updated my blog . A simple one . Nice , actually .

Okay , bye . Waka waka eh eh !

A beautiful thing .

2010-06-10T14:20:00.001+08:00

Didn't blog a proper post , recently ..

Had NCC and FDS trainings this whole week .
Fun but tiring . Long hours of FDS . Phew .
Most was 8 hours or FDS , i think .
Best . Had a hard time learning certain movements ,
but practiced it with Naqiah , like hell during those hours in school .
Hope we can remember the steps . :/
Lots of cock ups during FDS .
Lots of misunderstandings / long faces / push ups / shouting .. blablabla .
But, still can manage .
There's 10 of us , involved in the competition .
While we practiced for the comp , others kinda cheered us .. Somehow .
Yesterday , Part of the PDS group looked at our FDS group train .
During these 3 days , lots of funny things happened , not forgetting the anger and sadness .
Yes , we got scolded for some shit , but , still happy during training .
I guess all of us hardly ate before training . Ha . All hungry sia .
hahak . Okay that's all . I've not eaten . So , bye .

; " Everyone is gonna hurt you someday . You just have to find someone worth suffering for . "
And for me , that someone is you .

We are the world . We are the children .

2010-06-09T20:54:00.000+08:00

Hi . Tired . Sleepy . Blablabla .

Bye .

SARIMBUN

2010-06-03T22:35:00.000+08:00

Camp . Camp . Camp .

Pictures in the morning . 6+ am .

To be continued ... without pictures . :D

Camp rock!

2010-05-31T18:51:00.000+08:00

Ssup.

Hello. I'm happy. Going camp tomorrow. Camp rocks.
LOL, like what Erfan said. It's gonna be like ...
Camp Rock . xDDDDD
Away from 1st to 3rd June . (:
Will blog again , later tonight. Chaoz .

I miss ... (never mind) ..

2010-05-30T22:05:00.001+08:00

I would want to turn back the clock to THAT certain time .

How I wish those times were enough .

Holidays ; Occupied with lots of tuition homework , NCC trainings , 3 days of camp , 0 outings for now , craps at home , and maybe , just more craps .

Hmmm, Mr Lian is gonna call my mom, one of these days . Haish . Looks like I've disappointed my Mom ... again . ): Suddenly , I feel so useless . After whatever shit that my Mom had been through , I'm adding on to her burden . Fuck , how I suck . I didn't want to disappoint my Mom , after the previous call that was made . Fuck , why am I so stupid that I have to do this to my parents . FML . )':

So much for ' holidays ' . -.-'.

Seriously , everything is ruined now . Besides my life , even my class is somehow tearing a part . And it's just because of one bloody thing . Fuck or what .

Holidays = Ruined .

Mood = Ruined .

Knowledge = Slow .

Life = FUCKED UP !!

Come on, how much more idiotic can I get ?!

I screw up in most of the things .

I even made fucking huge mistakes ! Arrrgh !!!!!

I shall do things according to my own way now .

I shall be positive and confident .

I shall persevere with God's will .

I shall do whatever it takes to go through this thing called ' life ' .

I shall study more .

I shall make my parents proud .

I shall do all this ... one fine day ...

But now , I shall only sit a side , and think .

Sometimes , I just don't understand what's going on with life .

I feel like something/someone is missing . Idon'tknow.

Help Me . )':

For my friends and others ,

Do Be Happy . Please .

You'll regret it when pain strikes .

Now, I'm trying my best to be as happy as i can .

For you (readers , I guess) , for my parents , for my friends . For me .

Everyone deserves a second chance .

2010-05-27T22:45:00.000+08:00

We started as two, but like water we melted and swirled into one . But now, frozen in cold temperature and eaten by others, we broke up into pieces and went on separate paths . and that's You and Me . - Me. :/

It's been a long time . There's nothing for me to blog about, anyway... Today is the last day of the term . Goodbye school, hello Holidays . But, we're still have yet to go to school in these four weeks for CCA or classes etc . There's gonna be a level camp next week . Occupied from 1st to 3rd June . Hope my asthma won't attack again like a week ago . Pfft . Watching free movie tomorrow, with Torres's wife . Three movies in mind now . Heh . Hmmm . Bored . Didn't hang out with others for the past few weeks already . Missed them . ): Never mind, there's holidays . (:
Goodbye World.

Sad memories.

2010-05-16T23:17:00.000+08:00

Hi. Hello.

It's been a long time since I last blogged , for real.

Haish. Skip the bloody exams.

Well, on my birthday.

Hah, sorry i'm mixing everything here.

So. Boys bought me cake. Thanks, loved it.

A boy and girl bought me a dozen of JCO donuts. Thanks, love.

They also gave me 2 birthday cards. *Jantung* (Y)

Wishes wishes wishes. Thanks everyone.

Hmm. Getting older means more problems , I guess.

Never mind. Okay. I'm going to change.

No more, stupid Aliyah.

I'm gonna study hard after all this bullshit.

I don't give a damn about what's gonna come out for my results.

Btw, Fuck you maths.

Okay. Next.

Problems (?)

Hmm. Some things are cocking up I guess.

Whatever. Next.

Ncc Shooting.

Great. M16. FTW.

But, body hurts. haish.

But, shooting rocks. okay.

Next.

Ohh, before I forget.

I would like to say this again and again and again.

I ♥ MY GRANDMOTHER.

Six times. (: Happy Number. Sad moments.

Okay. My grandmother cooked my favorite dishes for my birthday.

Just for me. Specially. I love you, Nenek. \m/

Okay. Next.

Hmm. Going out tomorrow.
The plan was to watch movie. Well , that's the main thing.

But... idk.

Ohh, whatever.

Buying shirts tomorrow. I don't care.

Arrgh. I don't know why, but, I'm feeling kinda sad now.

Well, I think I know the reason but, idk . Okay, crap.

I wanna off this computer.

Wanna text Naqiah. She makes me happy. (:
Thanks Naqiah. You \m/.

Okay, goodnight Noob heads.

I shall keep my feelings to myself.

Ohh, one more thing. If i happen to lie to you, but without you knowing, sorry.

I'm just good at it. hah, crap. I just had to, okay!

Malam.

I _______ You.

2010-05-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

Harro. Exams over. Hmmm, prepared to fail Maths. That's for sure.
Cries..
Haish, i really suck in maths . wtheck .
Will post properly sooner or later. Goodbye.

Mac mac mac mac mac mac .

2010-05-12T22:55:00.002+08:00

Hi, I had no time to blog. Sorry, had been studying everyday after school with peeps.

Sorry, meet you guys back after Friday , aite . :D

Chao ~

I cried .

2010-05-06T23:43:00.000+08:00

(Before my birthday ends in ... 15 mins , .....)

I would like to wish myself

Happy Birthday to Me . :D

Btw , thanks for the BIG PICTURE of Toblerone , Ajo . xD ♥

Beautiful Girl , all over the world

2010-05-04T16:47:00.000+08:00

Iqyn , nahh , the video i wanted to show you . (:
Both your video and this is nice . \m/
This guy nyer rap cool . xD
Your's , has a nice version of himself . HEHE .

Nothin' on you - B.o.B

[Chorus: Bruno Mars (B.o.B)]
Beautiful girls, all over the world
I could be chasin but my time would be wasted
They got nothin on YOOOOOOOOOU, baby
Nothin on YOOOOOOOOOU, baby
They might say hi, and I might say hey
But you shouldn't worry, about what they say
'cause they got nothin on YOOOOOOOOOU, baby (Yeah...)
Nothin on YOOOOOOOOOU, baby
(Nuh-nuh-nuh-nothin on you babe, nuh-nothin on you)

[B.o.B - Verse 1]
I know you feel where I'm comin from (from)
Regardless of the things in my past that I've done (done)
Most of really was for the hell of the fun (the uh)
On the carousel, so around I spun (spun)
With no directions, just tryna get some (some)
Tryna chase skirts, livin in the summer sun (sun)
And so I lost more than I had ever won (Wha??)
And honestly, I ended up with none (Huh??)

[Bruno Mars - Pre-Chorus 1 (B.o.B)]
There's no much nonsense, it's on my conscience
I'm thinkin, "Maybe I should get it out"
And I don't wanna sound redundant
But I was wonderin, if there was somethin that you wanna know
(Somethin that you wanna know)
But never mind that, we should let it go (we should let it go)
'Cause we don't wanna be a TV episode (TV episode)
And all the bad thoughts, just let 'em go (go!)
Go (Go!) Go (Heeeeey~!)

[Chorus]
Beautiful girls, all over the world
I could be chasin but my time would be wasted
They got nothin on YOOOOOOOOOU, baby
(Nuh-nuh-nuh-nothin on you babe, nuh-nottin on you)
Nothin on YOOOOOOOOOU, baby
(Nuh-nuh-nuh-nothin on you babe, nuh-nothin on you)
They might say hi, and I might say hey
But you shouldn't worry, about what they say
'cause they got nothin on YOOOOOOOOOU, baby
(Nuh-nuh-nuh-nothin on you babe, nuh-nothin on you)
Nothin on YOOOOOOOOOU, baby
(Nuh-nuh-nuh-nothin on you babe, nuh-nuttin on you)
Yeaaaaah

[B.o.B - Verse 2]
Hands down, there will never be another one (nope!)
I been around and I never seen another one (naaaah..)
Because your style they ain't really got nothin on
And you out when you ain't got nothin on (Ha ha!)
Baby you the whole package, plus you pay your taxes
And you keep it real while them other stay plastic
You're my Wonder Woman call me Mr. Fantastic
Stop... -- Now think about it

[Bruno Mars - Pre-Chorus 2 (B.o.B)]
I've been to London, I've been to Paris
Even way out there to Tokyo
Back home down in Georgia, to New Orleans
But you always steal the show (steal the show)
And just like that girl you got me froze (got me froze)
Like a Nintendo 64 (sixty-fo')
If you never knew, well now you know (know!)
Know (Know!) Know (Heeeeey~!)

[Chorus]

[B.o.B - Verse 3]
Everywhere I go, I'm always hearin yo' name (name, name, name, name...)
And no matter where I'm at, girl you make me wanna sing (sing, sing, sing, sing...)
Whether a bus or a plane (plane), or a car or a train (train)
No other girls in my brain, and you the one to blame

[Chorus]

[Outro - B.o.B]
Yeah, and that's just how we do it
Heheheh, and I'ma let this ride
B.o.B and Bruno Mars

Goodbye Happy day.

2010-05-02T16:50:00.000+08:00

Trashed . Trashed . Trashed

Why did that feeling lasted only for a day (?)

I guess , happiness lasted only for awhile , huh ?..

I'ts okay , I'll be fine .

I will be fine . Look , I'm HAPPY . ▲

Get well , Yanti . ♥

06052010 Happy + Sad = LIFE. \m/

Words that reminded me of you .

2010-05-02T15:54:00.000+08:00

" It may be over but it won't stop there, I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul. You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when, My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand. Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell. I've been addicted to you. "
- James Blunt ; Goodbye my lover.

Words that reminded me .
How you've understand me .

" We've had our doubts , but now we're fine
And i love you , I swear that's true . "

Weeeeeee !~

2010-04-30T23:17:00.000+08:00

Was happy for a moment . :D

1 more week , baybeh !! (:
Woah, you remembered ! cool.

don't be mood - less ,boy . :/

Like I said , feelings don't lie . People do . Are you one of the liars ? )':

2010-04-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

I've been forgotten .
Tears rolled down my eyes , wondering .
After all that , I felt that I'm nothing to you .
Nothing , right ? Yet , you expected friends .
What . What are you trying to say ?
I'm not good enough ? Even as a friend ?
What the heck is wrong with you .
You only find a ' friend ' better then the previous and forget them .
Freak , no wonder some dislikes you !
When have _ , ignore _.
When _ is gone , then you come looking .
You really disappoint me .
After all that .
Once again , i thought i heard ' friend '
coming out from your mouth.
Mind telling me , was that true or
was it just to make a smile out of me ?
Walking past , looking , seeing you , it makes no difference i see .
I cried reading the history of our chats .
Yes , cried. Those memories , whoa , aren't they lovely .
But .. things changed ..
I'm not blaming you .
I blame myself for _.
Till today , the feelings were the same .
Hah , as expected , Forgotten .
Fuck , you really trashed my wish .

In one week ;
Bloody hell , my wish trashed . Happiness trashed . Friend (?)
What are you gonna trash next ? My birthday ?
Hold on , do you even remember my day ?
God , it's on that day where two things will bloody happen .
Heck , bye.

Fuck you Maths.

2010-04-29T19:43:00.000+08:00

Hello .
I just edited my blog and whatever crap .
Ermm , nothing to blog about actually .
Let me tell you my grades for January or so ....
3 A1's .
1 B3
1 B4
1 C5
1 F9 [ fuck you Maths ]
That's all .
BYE.

I can strive better for my Maths and other weak subjects. - I told my mum in her face as she signed the result slip. ♥▲

2010-04-25T22:02:00.001+08:00

Will update when I'm free . Bye . ♥

Black and White

2010-04-18T19:33:00.002+08:00

Rain ♥

Boys , what's wrong with

you guys this year !?

► Misunderstandings ◄

Fight some more !

▲ Tears.Tears.Tears ▲

TRUST (?)

LIES (?)

Girl + boy = Relationship ♥

Girl VS Boy = Whattheheck ?

So , Wassuup now ?

Happy+girls+boys+misunderstandings+FIGHT+LIES +Relationships+Morefights+
WTFs+Tears+Tears+Tears+We.are.the.
children+age+love+facing.fears+problems
+fights+love+breakups+more.

FUCK REALITY !

Maths , you can't kill me .

2010-04-13T20:27:00.000+08:00

Hey yo .
It's been a long time since I blogged . Sorry , been busy these few days . Study study study . Hmmm . Exams are only like ... 1 week + ? Haish , I'm still struggling in Maths . But , never mind , I'm trying my best now . Getting help from friends and stuffs .... Hmmm , persevering here . Erm , didn't take Napfa that day . Due to .... So , ya .. Erm , that's all . Wanna go study some maths . Goodbye .

[ Sorry for lying to you . ]

Naqiah , I'm left with two more days . How , How ?
What if I break that wish ?
What if I disappoint you ? ):
Never mind , I will try my best not to .
But ... TWO days ? Hmm , I don't know Naqiah . :/
Tkpetkpe , boleh punyerrrr .

Feel it , loser .

2010-04-05T21:33:00.000+08:00

pissed.annoyed.sick.

God , how you piss me off boy . Come on la , who do you think you are ? Seriously , who the bloody hell do you think you are ? You think you're so good , don't you ?! DREAM ON LA . You lead the same lives as others . But , you think that you're the only one bloody suffering ?! Eh boy , others are suffering more . Or should I say , MORE then you in fact ! It's good , that you feel how others feel now . Hey , it's not that I'm bad mouthing you but in a way that I'm so called telling you angrily . Last time , you were like .. " hey , i'm sad and stuffs . I'm useless . AND BLAH BLAH BLAH " ....................... Eh , in fact , I SUFFER MORE THAN YOU DO , NOW . Because of one tiny incident , every bloody thing in my life changes . Now I realize that . Now YOU shall feel the pain I'M going through .

One more thing , don't always look upon yourself .

THINK ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS LAA !

bodo.

Amek ko ubat ~!

2010-04-05T21:21:00.000+08:00

Padan muke ko la boy . Ko nak sangat kan ? Taste of your own med laa eyh .

You can't play when it comes to love .

GET THAT FACT RIGHT .

Naqiah : Insyaallah , by your birthday . (:

Good Friday

2010-04-02T16:44:00.001+08:00

I ~~used to~~ love ~~that special~~ you.

I still do~~n't~~.

Hello. I'm bored at home. Hmm , always bored when it comes to holidays .

Weird . Wanna go bowling but ......

So , next time ar . :D

Ermm , I don't know what to blog about .

So , yeah . Bye .

fuck , you said you hated liars . then , what makes you now ?

2010-04-01T22:59:00.002+08:00

i'm always closer to you .

♥ Love ;

" if you don't mean what you say ,

then shut the fuck up la .

Cause , if you don't ,

you break more hearts ."

like how you broke mine )':

You're familiar .

You broke my ♥ , don't you dare break others .

I really thought you were different from others .

Special .

A special guy who has a special heart .

You had it once , then , that special , changed .

WHY ?! You disappoint me boy .

But , that doesn't change IT.

I still do . ♥

I feel so ___.-

2010-03-31T19:59:00.000+08:00

Sorry for my fucking sad mood . Sorry .

I'm sorry that you had to suffer with my sad attitude .
After hearing you out just now , it made me feel bad .
Bad , as you had to really give your best , just to fucking cheer me up .
Come on , Aliyah . Fuck , your friends are doing their best to bloody cheer you up ,
yet you do nothing to cheer your own self up .
I'm really sorry . I'm still sad . I can't do anything about it . I can only pretend to be happy .
I can't fade that sadness , just like that . No way that is happening .
Now , like I've said , I'm trying my bloody best to get that old mood of mine , back .
I know , I know how you feel . Facing this torturous part of me . I'm really sorry .
Didn't thought that you would really help me , in this matter .
I'm so sorry , dearest friend .
I know , I suck when it comes to this kind of things . So sorry .
I promise , I'll try to change back .
But , even if I seemed happy in school , don't think I'm THAT happy .
Hmmm , once again , I'm really sorry .

To Mursyahidah Bte Arshad :
JUST HOLD ON . PERSEVERE .

Wait or fucking move on .-

As much as you thought I don't give a fuck bout it , I do .

2010-03-26T21:39:00.000+08:00

Things are fxcking cocked up this few days / weeks :

Sorry for lack or updates . Fxcking busy with camps , school etc .

School :
Damn , bloody shit la for the bloody new timetables .
Changed 3 times sia . wtf betul .
Mostly 3 periods of subjects , almost every day . Shit .
Thursday - 3 English , 3 Maths and 3 Science . Crazy ar ?!
Come on , we're sec 2's and you're killing us already .
Eh , bodoh . COME ON LA .
Recess also , fly here fly there . -.-.
Pack siol . Kimek .

Home :
Arrgh , bored . Brother Pink wasn't home for most of the time .
As in since I came back from school , onwards .
He's been coming home late . Haish , late classes , as usual .
Due to late classes , I rarely see him . Btich .
Miss you Bro .
Erm , mum and dad always home at night . Only . Work . Haish .
See them at night + weekends only . Pfft .

Own bloody self :
Grrr , i get angry easily this few days .
People are making me tensed sometimes .
Sorry if I get angry with the others . Once I'm angry , everyone takes it .
Sorry .
But , in class , always cooled down by LZH . hehehe , thanks dude . (Y)
Erm , learnt something on emotions at camp , the other day .
Thanks Ncc Camp steel . Sir made me realized something . (L)
Erm , just got back from camp steel , yesterday .
The second day , slacked with Sirs and Maám , due to Bone injury .
Kimek , sakit gile sia . First day , not bad . Second day - paint ball (Y)(L) . FTW .
But , didn't play full round .
Erm , first day - evening - strip and assemble rifle . Best sia . 1 minute la oi ! :D
Okay , learnt how to use the compass and map reading . Syiok .

This few days , I don't feel so good . Everything is dying on me sia .
Here problem , there problem . Haish , bloody hell .
Things like a few days ago , really hit my mind and heart sia .
It really screwed in . Fuck . bye .

2010-03-19T18:02:00.000+08:00

What a life , I have .

Bone Injury . Heart ache . Illness here , illness there .

Haish , saddening life . But , I've yet to fight through everything .

Heading for operation , maybe .

I'm scared . )":

3 months ?!

2010-03-19T15:18:00.002+08:00

Doctor says - " No NCC for 3 months . " :O

Boney .

2010-03-19T15:15:00.000+08:00

I'm back from Kampong Pelegong and

UG combined camp .

Not going to exaggerate on both activities .
haish , came back from camp - at night - fever .
fever - 38.7 degrees till now . HAISH .
Went to clinic yesterday night .
4 different medicines given .

Today , went to CGH in the morning with Mum and Dad .
For those of you who knew that I had some sort of bone problem
in between my spine and my butt , which is called a ' tail bone ' .
Yeah , went to look at it thru x-ray .
Took an x-ray just now . Then , went home .
Dad went to take the x-ray thingy after prayers .
When he got home , he told me that the doctor said that my bone - not only due to overstretched nerve - but also , my bone is growing the wrong way !! Instead of growing outwards , it's growing inwards . So painful ! So scary !
Then , dad said that maybe I have to go for an op .
Scary sia , first time i'm going for op you know ! )':

Painful PAIN !! )':

2010-03-12T23:07:00.001+08:00

Before I go ;

I'm trying bloody hard to move on . BLOODY HARD .
I'm walking away , my friend .
Just , for the sake of you .
By walking away , nothing will be in your way then .
You'll lead your life , much more easier . HAISH .
Goodbye.

Nothing's gonna work , for sure .

2010-03-12T23:01:00.000+08:00

Off to N9 tomorrow .

See ya , friends and other people .

Will be back on the 15th .
Will be gone on the 16th , again .
This time round , uniform group camp .
WAHHHLAO , tired . Okay , bye .
See you guys real soon . Confirm + chop , no mood this week . ):
Haish , don't even think about making me happy . Bye .

I'm walking away , okay! I can't take it anymore , get it ?!

2010-03-11T21:01:00.003+08:00

For your sake . Your one and only sake !

kawan peh pasal . I'm moving on . Can't take it laa !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( !

For you , my friend .

2010-03-10T22:13:00.000+08:00

Doing it , for her sake .-

I'm trying to.

2010-03-07T13:31:00.000+08:00

Web Kambings . :/

I miss __.

2010-03-06T22:00:00.004+08:00

6th Month of our __.

Today's the 6th .

Remembrance of 06.09.09.

Sad day today . Memories flipping back slowly to my mind .

Hmm , how this COULD have been a wonderful day .

But , because of __ , the opposite awaits .

)': Another month . Another day . The 6th day of our 6th month , passes by ..

Without any call of love .

Your love made me remember all those precious thoughts and memories .

It brings back that feeling , when I first felt your love .

Oh , how I missed you so much . I wished you knew . )':

Even if you do , i knew you wouldn't care at all .

Happy 6th month anniversary tak menjadi . Thanks aite ? ..

2010-03-03T22:09:00.000+08:00

I remembered when we first met .

[ Happy moments ]

Now , you've changed .

WHAT HAPPENED ?!

Wow , I suck .

2010-03-03T21:48:00.001+08:00

Oh , how I suck when it comes to
' moving on ' .

Please laa . Move on , Aliyah . Fxck , who am I kidding , I can't , OKAY !?

First fall of tears for love .

2010-02-27T12:26:00.001+08:00

" When I was thirteen , I had my first love . "

- Baby ( Justin Bieber )

I don't like him . I just like THIS song .

Refresh your life , please . I want the old one back ! :'( !!!!!!!!!!!

2010-02-26T23:18:00.000+08:00

GOD , I took 3 tests today . TODAY . It was supposed to be the *gerek-short-day* day .

But , ended up like that , huahua . Nevermind2 .

Erm , school was ...Okay , let's school , shall we ? Thanks .

Erm , FDS was ... AWESOMEZXC . :P

3 girls - Rabiah , Sharmirah and Me .

3 boys - Nayif , Hilmi and ( Chinese boy )

JJ , Deddy , Azhar , Taufiq , Adam and Hilman .

* Appeared from somewhere *

Ferina , Arnia and Dina .

Well, yeah . FDS peeps who attended ..

Deddy kept asking me , why the others never come . -.-.

Amir was there too , but ....

SO , erm , Ma'am Shikin was there too . But , went to the PDS group . DUH-UH .

Erm , 1 rifle was ............... ( Only read the good words . ^^. )

The 11 of us + Azhar , excluding the girl seniors , did some routines . Syiok sia . Weee~!

Errr , the plenty of funny things happened . I had to be the timer for the day . Long time sia never give timing . FDS + ncc somemore , just now . Pheeew , luckily I remembered the times , after a month of not coming . ^^ .

The ' Tukar langkah ' part was ... FUNNY .

The girls did it properly , BUT ...

The boys did it in a funny way . Heheheh!

Aku sokong boys sia . xD

Hempit kiri kanan pon , dorang buat tak betul . Ya Allah ~! Ha .

SO, after FDS , we played soccer , Handball and netball .

Tiring sia ! But , syiok , serious .

We played these activities without Sharmirah and Rabiah .

The games were great ! HAHAK . Pictures in FACEBOOK .

Then , after games , went to T1 . Bought for Musq an earpiece .

Hope it is good . (Y)

That was her belated birthday present . :D

Okay , that's all .

Damn , Musq and I had been itching away sia !

Due to the hot weather , My mum said that we are getting heat rashes . :O

Gosh , I've already got a bone-nerve-problem , and this adds on . HAIYOO.

Okay , that's all .

Goodnight , my legs feel like breaking . HAISH . 1 month of not marching whaaaaaat. Hahak .

2010-02-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

Annoying or what sia , my life ?!
Why must every bad thing happen to me ?!
Can i live my life without any problems nor misunderstandings ?!
fine , i'll try not to love him anymore . bye.

Don't give up , just for me . PLEASE .

2010-02-25T20:14:00.001+08:00

" I'm so sorry to have hurt you, Mors. In any way, I'm sorry. "

Dearest Mors

You don't have to let him go , just for me . You can still love him like how you did , for the past few months . I know , you loved him deeply . You seriously don't have to this for me , Mors . DON'T . Cause , all I know is that I won't get him back . There aren't any possibilities that I can get him back , that's for sure . Come on , you can still love him , serious . I don't stop you for doing this . I mean , what a foolish thing to do , if you were to stop loving him , just because I still do . NO . You don't have to stop .

I'm being serious here . You can be with him . You can have him . I don't mind . Serious . At least , that will make you happy . And , maybe he'll be happy too , for sure . You're a great girl . takkan die tak akan bahagia kan ?. Please Mors , nothing will change now , between us . You can seriously love him .
Serious . Sorry to have made you back off from your feelings towards him . Sorry .

Okay , I admit , I still do love him , but nothing will change that , right ?. That's why , i've not been talking much bout him . Cause , for all I know , you still love him . And , I don't wanna interfere with this . Love him all you want , Mors . Give him the happiness that he needs right now . Do make him happy in any way . I just want to see him happy , not down like this . Make him happy , cause you can . While I can't . Please , favor . Just make him happy . All I wanna see is BOTH of you happy . I don't care , whatever it takes . You MUST be happy . Don't make the wrong decisions just for me , when it isn't for you . PLEASE . You have to be happy . Both of you have to . Doesn't mean I still love him , I die die need him back , kan ? Just love him for all I care .

That's all I'm asking for . Be happy w/ each other . Don't stop loving him , just for me . I don't like it if you're gonna be sad . I know you will be sad in that one part of your heart . Seeing a friend sad , will make me feel useless as a friend , okay . I don't mind breaking down , feel regretful or sad or whatsoever , at least you are happy . He is happy . Everyone's happy . Not one regretting anything .

Please .
Thanks Mors , for being a great friend .

You're in my heart , but your heart belongs to others .

2010-02-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

You've forgotten me . How sad .

It looks like you don't know me anymore . Forgotten everything , maybe ?

Forgotten bout me , I guess . You don't seem to care anymore .

No more You . No more Aliyah .

i.still.do,but.you.don't.that's.the.worst.part.of.all.

Everything reminds me of you . EVERYTHING .

Tormented by violent feelings ;

2010-02-17T22:36:00.003+08:00

(Y) (L) \m/

" I miss ___ . "

Jealousy surrounds my inner feelings .

Sadness ; such a burden to me .

all my feelings , can now become an aggregate !

Why ? Why must all this happen in 2010 ?

" Imma NOOB . "

One more thing ; Imma noob . In a dumb way .

I hate it when I fail tests !

Esp Maths . Fxck you Maths .

Fly away , bloody hidden words ;

You don't love me anymore . You don't love me anymore . You don't love me anymore . You don't love me anymore.

Why ?! Why did you have to go !?

2010-02-15T21:05:00.001+08:00

Never ending sadness , I guess .

"It's always the same in every relationship, there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together, while the other doesn't even remember the things we've been through.
I hate that I have to be the one who remembers every little detail while he can't seem to remember me at all. "

Why do i still love someone , whose love isn't for me anymore ? Why do my tears fall endlessly for him , when i know that he isn't coming back ? Why do i still love him ? Why do i still care and bother for this ' love ' when he doesn't ? Why ? Why must the love that we had , be broken without the true reason ? Why do i feel that i really need him by my side ? Why do i miss you ?! Why do I still love you ?! )"""":

" WHY ?! "

All I'm waiting for, are reasons .

or maybe , his love .

All I'm suffering from, is your love..

Mors - A Great Friend .

2010-02-14T12:59:00.000+08:00

To dearest Moraa :

Hello Pretty , nooby , crazy , funny and etc friend . :D
I would like to wish you a Happy V'day to you .
Annoying right the messages ? HAHAK .
Well , I just wanna say that you're a really great nice friend .
Thanks for being there whenever I'm sad or what nots .
At least you were there for me .

Quote ;

A friend can tell me what I can't tell myself .
And , that is to move on from what had happened recently ..

Thanks Miraa . And , not forgetting other friends .
But , seriously , thanks Mors .
Mors.Mors.Mors.
I'm gonna call you Mors and not Mira . :D
Okay , that's all . Chalobeteh Mors .
Sayang ko times beribu-ribu . :P

*All your colours are in . :D*

Happy Valentines Day

2010-02-14T12:51:00.000+08:00

To : *Hmmmm* ,

I may not be someone you care about.

I may not be someone you always miss.

I may not be someone you will treasure.

I may not be someone you love nor like.

But I'm very sure that I'm glad that you were once in my life.

And I will never make you leave my heart.

I love you / every single one of you.

Happy Valentines Day .

Happy Valenese . ! xD

2010-02-14T11:13:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New year and
Happy Valentines day to all .
Those in love , spend time with
your loved ones .
Those alone , spend time
with your friends / family . :D

To all Chinese peeps , GongXiFaCai . :D

Haixx ..

2010-02-13T14:15:00.000+08:00

I still love you .

You just don't seem to realize ..

Hey Apple !

2010-02-13T14:04:00.000+08:00

Hey , Hey , Hey Apple , Hey .

Ahaha , good times , good times .

Sorry for everything , guys .

Sorry for not being in the mood ; as usual . -.-.

Sorry for not being me . pfft .

Sorry for ignoring you , Nurul / Izyan / Khairel / Hazim / Akmal .

Sorry for being ill this whole time and not going home or see the doctor . TSK .

Sorry for having this bloody attitude .

Sorry for EVERYTHING laa kan ..

So , hello .

It's been a long time since i said hello . (?)

Hmmm , most of my friends are not in the mood . Mostly about L.O.V.E . =.=.

Crazy shit right ? pfft .

Well , cheer up guys . ( Who am I kidding ? -.-. )

One sad , all sad . Ha , inside joke .

Now , chatting with Goat . * Goatsarelame * . :D

So , yeah . This goat ar , very annoying sia last night !

He and Miraa ' Quarrel ' . Then , Yanti come back la .

Then , Yanti help him , I help Miraa . Stupid - Funny shit sia . HAHAK .

Now , I'm annoyed with people . REALLY annoyed .

But , I don't really mind , cause I still care for them .

Make me as annoyed as you want , my ears are still here .

i will ignore you if you're rising the limit . -..-.

Is this the first time you felt hurt ?

Is this the first time you're not having anyone ?

Now you know how I feel .

Now you know how I felt when you left .

This is the feeling of her leaving you .

IT HURTS RIGHT ?

I know .. But , guess you didn't realize ..

To : ALZ .

MOVE ON, NOOB !

Once said , twice felt ;

Forget the times he walked by, Forget the times he made me cry,
Forget the times he spoke my name, Remember now he's not the same.
Forget the times he held my hand, Forget the sweet things if I can,
Forget the times & Don't pretend, Remember now he's just my friend.

From : ALZ .

230 Post . Slow sia . )':

2010-02-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

I've learnt something , throughout my experience ..
Which is ;

Losing someone you still love , will go a long way .
Cause all I know is , love WON'T go away that easily ,
no matter how hard that person have hurt you . )':

Sick ;
Not in the right mood ;
Have no voice ;
Still in my mind ~ .. ;
Trying to forget but can't ..;

Bye .

Where's your commitment ?! :'(

2010-02-06T16:22:00.001+08:00

Hi .

Everyone seems sad this few days . Haish .

For me , I rather get the facts right , rather then spreading the lies . pfft .

If telling lies hurt and breaks our heart , what more would the truth do ?

its been a month , but nothing is changing .

)':

happy.fifth.month.anniversary.that.didn't.work.out.;

I will never be happy .

2010-02-03T22:27:00.000+08:00

WHO AM I KIDDING ?
I can't even forget him ., yet I'm pretending to be happy .
Haish , my feelings , my problem . Okay ?.

Blame all you want , Boy . At least , I know you're happy , I'm fine with it .

2010-01-31T12:36:00.000+08:00

Hmmmph , sad sad sad . Yanti , let's go . I don't wanna be in this life anymore . I wanna have a life where people don't blame for what I didn't do . I want a life where all this shit wouldn't have happened . I wanna scream out everything that had happened . I wanna escape this life . Let's go Yanti . Yes , we should just go away for awhile , not doing what reality is doing but just doing the normal stuffs we do . Let's make those origamis and treasure what each of them means . And yes , MANY things can be done . Me too , need you , Yanti . We share the common things . I'm your box and you're mine . I need you now . The pain is killing me , inside out . People are hating me . People are blaming me . People are wondering , why am I sad . Wondering why must I still care bout him . Wondering , why the heck is he changing like this . Wondering why do I still care and love him , even though he has done things to me . Why ? Why must all this happen now ?! Wondering all the wonders that can and will come . I need to talk to someone . Someone like YOU . Yantiiiiiiiii ! I'm so hurt to even bother bout what's going on in my surroundings . Let's go somewhere where we can calm our minds . LET'S .

OUR SADNESS WILL NEVER END ;

And boy , you can blame me all you want . Tell others this and that . Scold me all the vulgars that you know . You can go around telling people everything ! Go ahead , ruin.my.life. Hey , i forgot , it's already been ruined . Go and tell everyone , GO ! Tell until you're happy with it . Do whatever it takes , till you're HAPPY with it . Do all the craps you want , till you're happy , and that's what matter .

At least , I know that you're happy .

"While I was holding on to the pain, all you did was let me go ." ;

2010-01-28T22:06:00.001+08:00

School is getting ridiculous every single day sia .
Especially when it comes to Maths .
Hmmm .. Boring sia Mr Choong teach . -.-.
But nevermind , still listen to him , for my own good . :)

So , after school chatted with Farah , Naqiah , Iskandar and Naz for awhile .
Then , chao to makan . Before that , while waiting for Naz , i had to go to Nurul's table then back to Naqiah's table and then back again for lots of times . Was discussing with Nurul and Hazel bout the drama thingy .
Hmmph , people were near there . :|

Hmm , after eating , went home with Naqiah .
Hmm , news were shocking when I was at home . :O
See how stupid you are to do such things ? =.=.

Hmmm , there will be FDS tomorrow .
SURE cannot join in the platoon sia . )':
Have to wait for a freaking looooooooooooooong time . Zzz , fail ar !.

Well , still not in the mood just yet . pfft .

I kept shouting at people when I've got no mood . My apologies . D':

<3 + )': = </3

Get it ?.

Every minute , every second ; Ithinkboutyou . ):

Bloody keys

2010-01-27T21:08:00.000+08:00

I REGRET BRINGING MY KEYS DOWN TO TAMPINES MART !!

FXCKING ANGRY AT MYSELF . -.-.

STUPID AR ! THEN , GOT SCOLDED EVEN THOUGH IT'S NOT FULLY MY FAULT !

You're still on my lonely mind . D:

2010-01-26T21:18:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not posting for the past few days (?).

Been busy with school . Zzz ar .

Feel so restless these few days . Fail ar . Haish .

Restless + mood less = MOOD REST .

I need to get back my mood . Can't be sad everyday , right ? Kesian my friends .

Rest ? GO HOME EARLY , ALIYAH .

Before I forget ,

Yesterday was Musq's and Erfan's birthday .

Happy birthday to both of you .

May you have happy lives , not like me , always . :D

So , today didn't fall in for NCC . another 4 more weeks . Zzz .

but still must come . hmm .

After NCC , went home with Naqiah , iqyn and Fatin .

Then , went to mac for awhile then home .

Before going home , something unexpected happened . Naqiah ^^ . haha .

You know I know . :)

Okay , thats all . I'm tired . I need some rest , seriously . Homework all the way sia . ):

I NEED TO REST , TEACHERS . In fact , WE , STUDENTS NEED TO REST . =.=.

Kay , bye .

Tmrw no assembly . -.-.

My words for you .

2010-01-23T13:42:00.000+08:00

I may have dendam you previously .

I knew that i will have dendam on you after all this .
But , I'm not gonna have dendam on you anymore .

Not now nor never .

I did have that dendam-ness feeling towards you , cause i really didn't know what to do .

Anger and sadness were the only things in my mind .

Ader 2 rasa dalam satu otak .

I just don't know what to do .

You . You were like .. everywhere in my mind .

When i'm sad / angry , i just have that dendam feeling towards you .

Wanna know why I was being bloody sarcastic towards you ?

Cause I was fucking angry with YOUR sarcasm . See , told you it's dendam .

Did you know , how it bloody feels to talk to you , when you're bloody sarcastic ?

well , that's the taste of your own medicine .

Seriously , those days were horrible .

Being sarcastic with you . Not talking to you for 2 weeks . HORRIBLE .

Fuck those sarcastic words . Now you get all the reasons out from me .

The only one left out are yours .

You seriously didn't have to lie .

When I knew that you lied , it bloody hurts more , you know that ?

I know , it's hard for you , I get it .

Hey , tell it to me when u can , kay ?

I'm trying my best to not be so angry now .

If u think back , do you think that I can let u off like this ?

I'm trying my best to NOT STRESS YOU UP .

SORRY FOR EVERYTHING la boy .

SORRY.IS.THE.ONLY.THING.I.CAN.SAY.FOR.NOW.

" Dissapear now when I'm dreamin' of your face . "

2010-01-22T22:12:00.004+08:00

I'm here - standing at a side - looking at you , being happy with other(s) .
" Eyh , asalkan die happy , takpe . "

Tail bone still hurts . Fxck shit . 4 weeks of pure boredom , coming up .
4-6 weeks to pure recovery . Haish , bearing with the pain .
A few tragic pain in me now . Haiyaak , what to do right .
It's all in God's hands . right ? hmmph .

Please cure , bone-ny . Please . You're just adding on to the pain . )=

Skip the Pain , for a moment .
Birthdays:

Happy 15th Birthday Farah Aqilah .
Happy 15th Birthday Nazri .
Happy 14th Birthday Khairunnisa !
Happy 46th Birthday , Momma ! :D

May all these people have a pleasant day .
Hopefully , they will be happy .
Hope they will be healthy always . Amin .
Hmm , more upcoming birthdays .

So sad . So sad .
whycantiforgethim,likeseriously ?
whyisitsohardforme ? D':
seeingyoudoesntstopthepain .
leavingyouhurtsmore,didyouknow? no..
i don't care if the reasons hurt .. I just don't wanna hear lies out of you .
you told me you hated liars . What is this ? Some kind of joke ?
See , you lied for a purpose too . My 'lie' has its own too .
I won't lie if there ain't no reason . ididntwantto.
...

Please laa , stop making me wonder !

2010-01-20T19:12:00.000+08:00

Tell me the REAL truth . I don't care if it hurts me , at least I know .

Rather than you , lying to me every now and then !

Lying to me , HURTS MORE . Did you even know ? D:

Please , don't lie no more .

Please . Tell . Me . Everything .

LIAR

2010-01-18T21:59:00.001+08:00

LIAR . DENDAM . PB .

What the heck laa kan .

Best laa tu .

You broke my heart , and said you won't ..

I thought I would forget YOU .

Fxck off ar . DASAR penipu ! Dendam je yang ko tau !
DASAR pb .

You should know how much I still love u .

2010-01-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

" One of the hardest thing in life is ,

watching the one u love , love someone else . )'; "

I can’t find anything to hate about HIM whom I love .. ):
(which is why it is so hard for me to ‘get over him’ after the relationship’s over.)

I still love u . I don't literally care for what others say .
But , after reading things , I guess it was too late .

THOSE weren't ordinary memories .

2010-01-13T22:28:00.000+08:00

" You play FAST game or what sia ? " -

Today , normal typical day .
Recess , best . Damn funny sia Khairel .
Hmm , lazy to exaggerate .
After school , went to blue sea .
Musq , Yanti , Nazatul , Azrul , Haikal , Danial , Jueta , Sharlyza , Fann , Fadhli , and another 2-3 more people . Forgot who . Sorry . Strong wind , I should say . Great . haha .
Lalala , follow Musq . Here there here there , home .
Tired uh sia . walao . Mr Vanan today , kind to my class uh . :P
Baek cikgu ! haha .

Sorry for not having the mood again . haish .

I won't hate you for leaving me .

I just hate myself for believing that u won't leave me .

bye .
'good' to know laa kan ..
Zoooom laa . pffffft .
the song just reminds me of u . haish .

All I'm sure of is , ur love for me is fading/gone. But , not mine .

2010-01-11T20:20:00.000+08:00

Today :
Today's subjects were .. okay .

Mr Lian didn't come again . He'll be back tomorrow . Yes ah . hahak .
Erm , nothing much happened in school .
After school > Blue Sea > Opp BS > Iqyn's house > Tmart > Home .
Met Dina , Hilman , Adam , Hakim and Faisal just now , at Tampines Mart .
Cheer up Hilman .
Cheer up Pink .
Today , very kecoh bout the results . Hmm , Abang , so sorry to hear .
Hmmm , currently listening to songs . Chatting with Naqiah .

Tomorrow :
NCC . Smart 4 . Haish .. Have to rush for the freaking toilet again . Other UG people , go different toilet laa ! You know NCC always go there right ? . haha , not throwing you guys out of the toilet or something . But , somethings , use your command sense laa . The toilet was freaking packed that day , by NCC , NPCC and St John . Other people can go different toilet pe . haiyaaak . Ala , gasak korang la .

Sorry :
To people who have tried to cheer me up ;
I'm sorry for not having the mood in classes / school .
I know you are trying your best ( like seriously ) to cheer me up .
Sorry to give you this shit-ass attitude . :'(
Especially for Musq , Haryanti and Nurul , you guys are trying to cheer me up ,
every single day / minute . You guys have never failed to do so .
It's just hard to do so .. I can't just blow the memories with him , just like that .
Sorry . I just can't let go the madness that is going on ..
sorry . sorry . sorry . sorry .
I'm sorry that MY mood is affecting you guys . :'(
Like what Naqiah said ;

Love- 4 simple letters, yet so confusing

Feelings- 8 simple letters, yet so unexplainable

Words- 5 simple letters, yet there aren't enough to express

Sadness- 7 simple letters, yet it lingers everywhere
Pain- 4 simple letters, yet it takes so long to heal
Mistakes- 8 simple letters, yet they can never be erased

I agree with Naqiah .
" But , I just can't forget him . So don't force me to forget him . "
Urgh , fxck you sadness !

akumasehsayangkolaa. Asal nie ?!

Mommy blabs .

2010-01-10T11:20:00.000+08:00

ZzzZzzZzzZzz .

I got a freaking scolding from my mum , for using the computer . While my brother uses the computer like , the whole freaking day , YET he gets NO BLOODY SCOLDING .

Nak cakap yg die dabes o'level , SO ? Be freaking fair laaa Mom !!

And , I just switched it on for the past 10 mins sia !! Walao ! It's not like I've got homework to do right ! -.- Come on laa , I've studied for the past week in school , don't tell me I can't even have a freaking break during the weekends ?! .. HAISH .

Come on la , orang dah tkder mood , jangan membebel pat rumah for once la !

' Kimak sia ! I've got no mood , don't have to make it worst right ?. '

Year of a new starting x]]

2010-01-09T17:47:00.003+08:00

Hah , my title has a English problem man ! haha . Talking like Yoda . Kay .
I'm bored , let's talk .
Talking bout this year ..

Hah , sec ones .. So many of them .
Some kentals .
Some minahs .
Some matrep wannabe .
ATIKAH - SOME EVEN SMALLER THAN HER SIA ! xD ( Amek ko , Atikah ! [; )
haha , thinking back , we were one of the 'kentals' before . haha .
So , for those 1n2 peeps who step big fxck in front of my friends / classmates ,
You're just a sec 1 . don't merepek laa !
People raise voice only , you scared already . What is this ? Zzz .

This year ;
I'll be nice to you , if you want me to .
( Just don't provoke me . kay ? )
I don't care who you are . No matter whether you're my enemy , my ex or who-so-ever .
At least you're nice to me , I'll be twice as nice to you .
I'll try my best to do all my homeworks .
I'll try not to make BIG mistakes in school .
I'll try not to be in my worst of moods .
I'll try not to fight with PINK .
I'll try to continue to laze my anger towards anyone at home .
I'll try to be nicer to you .
I'll try to be a better person .
Be a better cadet , daughter , friends , student , kid .
I'll be wiser with my $$ .
I'll TRY , okay ? InsyaAllah .

So , all this will only work , if you guys don't provoke me .
If you do , you'll see a bitch then . :x

Done with that .;
Currently chatting with Moraa . She's at a cyber cafe place ..
hahak . finally someone's online . Pheeww .

Internet is a fuss now . ISH !
Kept disconnecting me . -.-
bye.

" Tried to forget bout you . But , guess it isn't working . "

I still do .. Why ? )':

2010-01-09T12:15:00.000+08:00

Went to blue sea ystd , with the usuals . Including Naqiah , Shafika and Sharlyza . The boys weren't there . Hmm . So , walked with Naqiah first . Lalala , bought the food then chao to opp block . Wait wait wait , EAT . haha . Before they reached , both of us were listening to songs . Naqiah was recommending me some songs . Nice . (:

An hour or so , went to Farah's house . With Naqiah , Shafika , Sharlyza and Moraa .
Others had to return to school , due to the Meet-the-parents thingy ..

Watched " Coming Soon " . Damn scary sia . Hahaha . Then , got problems with the cat's fur on our skirt . HAHA ! Lalala, went home with Naqiah and Shafika .

Nananana , reached home , get scolding with my dad , on the phone . Wtfark btol . Hmmm , then , I've got nothing to do , so I talked to my brother . Zzz .
Nanana , Sleep .

I feel like I missed someone ..
Maybe I still do . )':

Tried not to cry .

2010-01-07T22:22:00.001+08:00

I never wanted you to go .
But , guessing that you really wanted it , wish granted .
Thought I'll forget all bout it in a few days ,
guess I was wrong .
Thought that I won't cry . Guess I just did .
Not showing my emotions to you , I became sarcastic .
Being Sarcastic , made you angry , I can see that . Really sorry . );

People come first then the ones
who they (might) love most .
Reasons are just a question and answer thing .
Difficult ? I see .
Silence ?
Waited with doubts . Waited with sadness . Waited for everything .

k, forget it . You care , only now .

Memorable Moments .. hmm.

2010-01-06T19:52:00.000+08:00

Today was quite a day to remember , especially after school .
Had fun during drama . haha . Drama was .. hmmm .. somehow fun ? .
After school , went to S11 . Reached , shop close . =.=. Don't know why , so went to Mr Teh Tarik , somewhere nearby . Miraa , Iqyn , Nazatul , Haryanti , Farah , Shafika , Jueta and Sharliza were there with me . Got some bad Singaporeans . Zzz . Then , one of our school's teacher , I don't know what's her name actually . But , she's the one who's always at the office .
So ....
Went to Library > Iqyn's place > Home .
Well , things happen .. Hmm .

Yeah , that's bout it , I guess .
Well , meeting Naqiah soon . Tmart .
So , yeah . hmmph , bye ..

;'(
Thanks Iqyn .

Happy 4th month anniversary , that didn't really happened .
Maybe , I still do ...

Gone.Gone.GONE. - Naqiah .

2010-01-03T10:25:00.003+08:00

Thanks for everything , aite ?
Much appreciated .
There were 2 fucking weeks , but you did it now .
Suffered . I guess you didn't care at all .
Ohya , You hated me, I 'forgot'.
In 4 fucking days left , you did it now . That's a bigger WOW .
Alaa , to even think that I won't care , well guess again .Cause all I know , you don't .
We will be friends . Close ? idk .
Thanks , aite ?
Have a ' good ' 2010 then .

Hey , I've been alone for 12 years . I can continue , kay ? :]

2 weeks and counting .

2010-01-02T15:30:00.002+08:00

Hello .

Let's 'summarize' bout the 4days ago .

30th December 2009 .

Went to school with Naqiah , Azman and her dad .
Bused to Springfield to buy Azman's books .
Then , headed to our school . Naqiah bought her books and then we went out of school .
While walking towards the gate , saw Yanti and Musq . Both of them came screaming towards me , esp Yanti . (Y)(L) . HAHA .
Then , suddenly , Miraa came from the back of me and Naqiah . :O
HAHA ! Everything comes coincidently . xD

So , after that , Bused to S11 with Yanti , Musq and Miraa . While Naqiah went to interchange with her dad and Azman . Lalala , laugh like mad in the bus , coz all of us were swinging , sliding everywhere , coz the bus was fast and we were only holding on to either the pole or NOTHING . xD

So , met Shaun and Syafiq there . All of them ate except for me . Coz , I already ate prata at home . HEHE . Funny things . Bought Milktea before that . Thanks Shaun for buying another one for me . (:

Lalalala , Miraa went off . We went to the post office , since Syafiq wanted to post something .
Then , MORE FUNNY THINGS happened . xDD Read at Musq's blog if you want . Example -

"WHAT THE FUCK! Pull the letter back out! PULLLLLLLLLLL!" - Yanti .

HAHA ! Good one Musq .

So , yeah , that's bout it .

31st December 2009
New Year's eve .

New Year's Eve was Awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !
Went out with Ncc peeps .
Met at the usuals .
Adam was late . As usual . :X
Musq, Yanti, Dina, Irfaan, Naufal, JJ, Hilman, Taufiq, Adam, Azhar. (L)

Trained to City hall , walked to the Flyer .

Tickets were 10 bucks each , coz it's a special student price thingy .
So , while waiting for 6.30pm , we did this . (:
A passerby took it for us . (Y)

Waited for 6.30pm so that the lights would be on . (:
While waiting , slacked around for awhile .
Took lots of pictures .
Mostly , the people in the photos were the guys . :O
Didn't know that they were photogenic . :O
Lalala ..

Aite , after flyer , off to Simpang bedok . MAKAN !

Juniors one table , seniors another .

Then , took 10 home .

Lepak with Adam and Hilman at mac till 11.50pm .

Reached home at 11.56pm . Just on time for countdown .

Lalalala, done . (:

Aite , TODAY .

I'm going out at 3.45pm . Meeting Hilman and younger bro at Tampines Mart . Then , meet Adam at small mac . Watching Alvin and the Chipmunks , since no one is free to watch with me . ):

So , BYE . (:

Ouh , and Photo's are at facebook .

Mine , Yanti's and Taufiq's account .

2 weeks of Silence is ENOUGH . But , it's still continuing . Wow . bye .

2009-12-31T10:28:00.002+08:00

Hi , I'm back from Jakarta .

Sorry for not posting on the day I came back , coz , I reached home at 2 in the morning . So , yaaaa .

Not in the mood for the past few days . Haish .

Trying to cheer up like what my friends told me too . But , now , I just don't know what to do . )':

2009-12-24T12:09:00.000+08:00

BYE .

Goodbye Singapore . I'm going to Jakarta till 29th Midnight .

Somehow I feel like I've got no mood for happiness . Hmmm .

Whatever it is , I'm gonna miss whoever who I'm supposed to ..

Leaving with (insert emotion) . Goodbye . Sayonara .

NCC on WEDNESDAY .

2009-12-21T11:12:00.000+08:00

ATTENTION NCC CADETS :

From Insyirah .
There will be NCC training
on 23rd December , Wednesday .
Time : 8.00am - 11.00am .
Attire : Smart 4 .
Report at Fernery .
Attendance is COMPULSORY .
Please have a valid reason if you can't attend .

( If can't attend , kindly tell one of your cadet friends . )
Thanks .

Please , tell me why . Can ? )':

2009-12-20T19:30:00.000+08:00

Hello .
Now posting bout yesterday's event .

19 December 2009 .
Woken up by NaqiahTorres . She woke me up at 6.59am . Why ? Because of the usual Saturday thingy luhs . hahak . You know , I know uh Naq . lol . So , texted her all the way till approx. 10am . Then , went to bathe . Lalala , wore Pink baju kurong since we don't have red . Red was the theme actually . hehe . Erm , Mum and I wore pink . Bro wore white . Father wore Shirt . AS USUAL . Hmmm .. Left home at 11am . Taxi our way to Hort Park . My Uncle drove us there . hehe . Hmm . We were the second family to arrive . Yeaaaay . Errr , I started my work first . Whereas , Abang and Dad started eating . -.-.
I had to arrange to Kuihs . Check the table deco . Mum arranged kuihs too . And checked the berkat . Nananana , more kuihs arrived . hahak . Makciks and pakciks started entering the hall . Air-con tau ! (: Hort Park is such a beautiful place . Love it . Well , let's just let the pictures do the talk for now . heh .

Nanana , other pictures will be uploaded on Facebook . but , LATER . (:
I had lots of 'part time jobs' ystd . HAHAK .
Had to - be a kendarat . Photographer . Baby sitter . Waiter . Shouter . Waiter . Photographer all the way laa . Lalala , eat abit , start work all over again . HAHAK .
Hmmm , today , woke up at 9.00 . Watched soccer yesterday night . Damn , man u and liverpool . FUUH . 3-0 , 2-0 . like .. WOW ? hahak . Arsenal - WOW . Whatever eh abangs . Pfft . hahak . Hmmm , went to Tmart with Naqiah just now . Bought some stuffs , lalala , met Shafika , lalala , went home . Hmmm , something happened suddenly . And I still don't know the reason . Hmm . Shall wait . Now , listening to songs , plurking , facebooking , chatting with no one . Zzz . Bored sia . From just now , I was only chatting with Musq and Blue . NO ONE else whom I always chat with was online . Hmmm , text also like .. Don't know laa ! haish . Thinking bout some stuffs . SORRY FOR MY MOOD . dalah , bye uh ! tsk .

What ? Why ? What is the reason ? Haishhhhh .

Please take my apology .

2009-12-20T12:15:00.000+08:00

Baby , I'm sorry for being bloody sarcastic with you .

I know you feel bloody annoyed , coz ,

I've felt that / your SARCASM before .
And , damn I hate it . I'm really sorry , aite ?

I'll be more less sarcastic for you , aite ? ..

Once again , sorry baby .

I Love and miss you . )':

&& haish , 4 more days and you don't have to bare with my bloody shit no more ..